I never really know how to begin my entries, so I'm just going to get straight to the point.

I'm in Beijing right now and it's actually quite amazing and unexpected how interested I am in the history of my people.  I've been to so many places and i've seen so many great historical areas that it's starting to give me a sense of what I am in addition to who i've been so far.  It's almost like being given a second identity....or at least one that completes my other(s).  So far, the best place I've been? Definitely the Great Wall.  Climbed it today.  The views, the tourists, and such...it's unbelievable.  I climbed a structure that was built 2500 years ago (though, yes, it has been retouched every so often).  Although, I must admit, I was so scared at the top of the first stop that I cried.  I was the biggest baby there.  There were five year olds running down the steep, STEEP steps.  Like steps the height of the length of Rob's legs.  (I'm kidding, Rob.  You're perfect the way you are...i mean that in a friendly manner.  And I miss picking on you).  The others made me look down, I was PMSing, and I'm deathly afraid of heights.  Those are my excuses.  I had to hold another girl's hand the entire way down, no lesbian comments please, while the other hand was glued to the railing/ground.

Though there are the historical upsides, Beijing's pretty boring otherwise.  Macau had all the hot guys and such (sorry claw, I hardly took any pictures...I always forgot to bring my camera out).  The dancers from the Philipines stayed on the same floor as us and we got to know each other a bit.  We've been invited to dance there next summer...could be interesting. 

Those are all the updates I can think about right now, but...

Davina: You still need to mail me your HK phone number.  I'm going out clubbing and kareoke-ing with one of my dancer friends and I want you there!!!

I was going to do little personalized messages for each of you, but I'm waayyy too tired right now...and I can't think of anything.  I MISS YOU GUYS!!!  See you guys in about 25 days...or something like that.

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I've been learning Wu-shu. I'm gonna come home and beat all your asses...with a sword.  I'm as cool as Uma Thurman in Kill Bill now...but with tassels instead of the stupid blood and gore.  I learned something else today.  Apparently, my chinese sounds so bad that nobody will let me bargain.  It's very obvious that I'm a foreigner.

This bloody computer is entirely too slow.  On top of it being a Windows 98, geeks all around me are playing CS.  That's right, I said it.  People who play CS are geeks.  And loud.  and stupid...and they're getting on my nerves.  There's one behind me screaming to someone to change the stupid time limit and I almost turned around to smack him. 

If anyone ever feels the need to be up at 5:30-7 in the morning, you may catch me online.  If there's anything specific you guys want from here or Hong Kong, let me know.  Except you, Christian.  Only if you're good will you get any Pocky.  Since you all seem to have watched "Devil Wears Prada" already, I will be enjoying myself watching a pirated version tonight.  So there. 

Often, we judge people based on negative experiences.  This makes sense especially since negative opinions stay more clearly in our minds.  But if you really think about it, push past our discriminatory or biased views, most likely you'll find that each person that we judge has shown us acts of kindness, of thoughtfulness, etc. that prove that they care. 

Here's what I'm proposing:  Take a little time today, tomorrow, or whenever and just think of the many things people have done for you to show that they care.  Now, turn that around and think of the things that you've done for them.  Do not make a list or tally the scores for what you've done/received.  Instead, think of it in this way; you've affected those peoples lives in some positive sense, and in the same way, they have affected yours.

Feel free to share experiences, thoughts, concerns or just general randomness...Then go listen to Gavin Degraw's "Glass" and JC Chasez's "Build My World"...then some Nsync just for good measure.

You people are such xanga whores.  Fine...i'll update. 

So, I can't say that I have anything interesting to share ie.Davina's trip to france (which btw woman, i didn't know you were going.  How was it?)  All I can do, is share with all you xanga sluts out there, the ins and outs of my life of the past two months - possibly with some exclusions of certain...ehm...incidents.  Where to start?

Okay, scratch that idea...I can't think of anything.  So instead, I shall pose this question.  What is attraction?  If any of you post comments saying "a fuzzy feeling inside" I will have to hit you...just like I did to selena...ya know, just like in the video chris PROMISED TO TAKE DOWN BUT HASN'T AND SO HE'S GOING TO GET BEATEN TOO..anyhoo.  If it is the fuzzy feeling, then is mine broken?

Have you ever considered why the opinions of your friends matter so much?  Why should their thoughts affect the way you think?  Am I a raging lesbian - or a closeted whore (unlike xian who's a full-fledged whore)? :P 
I think i've had the chance to realize quite a few things these past weeks...and what I've realized makes me want to extend apologies to those who i've called shallow and hypocritical and such.  I'm not going to make the excuse and say that society has raised us to believe that physical appeal is everything - i mean, though it plays a part in our decisions, personally, we choose to see somethings as physically superior or whatever...

Okay, I said I'd post this up...so here it is:

Leave your name..yada yada, and I'll:

1. I'll respond with something random about you.

2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.

3. I'll tell you something that only makes sense to you and me.

4. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.

5. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.

6. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.

7. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal.

Lesley, Davina, and Fidela: emails are coming soon! I promise!!

Pictures will come soon - yes, Michael, I said it.

Okay, I owe davina an update.  Here's my life (the past two weeks ish) in a nutshell.  Yay for reading break.  Boo for school starting again.  and now check out Claudia's giant finger pointing to the white rock. and next to it, gary pointing to erica's butt.  Oh! Top right corner: Mike's pole dance!  and gary's just been hongerized...and yes, that is a word.

and here's sushi night and some at UBC...and one random white rock picture thrown in.  As usual, Chris looks a little insane...Candice is too damn photogenic.  and woman! look at who's next to Percy!!  That's right..HJ.  I didn't cover him up...just for you!

hmmm...sorry..again the pictures turned out small...and claw, no matter what you say, you do not look (that) retarded..otherwise, i wouldn't have put that picture on :D

Now go and listen to Craig David's "Johnny".  DO IT!

This took me way too long...I can't tell right now...but it also may be a bit small.  Ah well.

A collection of my life within the past two weeks...ski trip, UBC, VAD dinner, etc. etc.

...shattered by the ego of an insecure...

I haven't been talking too much lately.  Don't be offended if I give you short answers.  I'm just not feeling sociable.